rayoung

They'll tell you that your brain always remembers that you need to breathe. But mine forgot. I'll wake up Gasping for air. I'll be sitting And realize I have to inhale. And it's not that I don't want to breathe, I just forget. In the moment, I'm so caught up. I'm suffocating myself and don't even realize it. One moment I'm fine And then I realize I need air to fill my lungs. Or else, I'll topple like a tower. The suffocation isn't painful unless it takes me too long to remember. At first, It's almost peaceful. I don't even notice. That's when my brain realizes that something is wrong. Even though nothing hurts. I have to remember Ever